No Energy

No energy
No energy to talk
No ability to walk
Can’t get in and out of bed by myself
Can’t go to the bathroom on my own
My left leg feels like dead weight
Muscles not responding to instructions from my brain
Physical and occupational therapy sessions four times a day
Painful, grueling, and exhausting
But as they say, “no pain no gain.”
Who the fuck are they?

All I do is eat a little
(No appetite for this hospital food)
Between therapy sessions
Spend most of my time trying to sleep
Lots of weird, strange dreams
Where I’m able bodied
And then I wake up in this place
In the middle of my nightmare
Is it any wonder I’m depressed?

They say they’re sending me home next Friday
For the next phase of my recovery
I’m doing what I can
Fighting through the pain
To be ready for that
In the meantime
No energy to open WordPress
No energy to write
No energy to read, like, or comment.
No energy to thank all of you
Who have wished me well
Wished me a rapid recovery
Thank you

71 thoughts on “No Energy

  1. Misky January 21, 2023 / 7:37 am

    Friday. Just a week more, and you’ll be home!

    Liked by 2 people

    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 12:56 am

      Thanks , Jim, but I’m afraid it’s on me to bear the pain and what must be done move my life back towards normal.

      Liked by 1 person

  2. Lou Carreras January 21, 2023 / 7:54 am

    I’ll lay odds that you’ll rest better, and feel more energetic when you get back home.

    Liked by 2 people

    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:00 am

      It’s not so much the bed as it is being stuck in it. But being at home has got to be so much better than being in a hospital any way you look at it.

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  3. Maggie January 21, 2023 / 8:31 am

    Hospital lighting does not help with its cold green nature. I wish you a speedy recovery, Fandango. Rest and recuperate!

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  4. KL Caley January 21, 2023 / 8:46 am

    So sorry to hear this. Wishing you a speedy recovery. KL ❤️

    Liked by 2 people

  5. Sadje January 21, 2023 / 8:53 am

    Been there many times my friend. It will improve day by day. Sending you lots of best wishes and healing thoughts.

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  6. Jenn (she/her) January 21, 2023 / 9:07 am

    In the green glow of the hospital room, with no energy to spare, he mustered some words to let us know he was still there.

    To his surprise, though, his community knew, his future of writing would never be through.

    Continue to rest and take good care, they all said. Recovery’s important to get you out of that bed.

    You’re in good hands with Raul and Jeanie. We are sure that is true, and before long, we promise, you won’t be feeling so blue. 💙

    Liked by 3 people

    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:08 am

      Thank you. I’m doing my best, under the circumstances, to keep my spirits up, and kind and thoughtful words like yours help. A lot.

      Liked by 1 person

  7. Michelle January 21, 2023 / 9:10 am

    As so many have said, rest and be easy. The world, and Word Press, awaits when you feel better.

    Liked by 2 people

  8. rugby843 January 21, 2023 / 9:48 am

    I feel your pain Fandango but with your sense of humor and family support you will recover and whenever we find the “theys” I’m ready to give them a go too.  Hang in there and have your wife sneak in something tasty to get you by till you are home.  I begged to go home because the hospital bed was so uncomfortable and did end up going home from rehab too early.  Not good.  Take heart friend and all of our good wishes are flying over the net to you!🤗🤗🤗

    Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPad

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    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:15 am

      Thanks, Cheryl. Reading messages like this help keep my spirits up, even though, and especially after going through rigorous and painful physical and occupational therapy session, my energy is so drained all I am able to do is dream.

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  9. Destiny January 21, 2023 / 10:26 am

    Wishing you a speedy recovery and tons of healing your way… Feel better soon… 🙏🤍🤗

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  10. msjadeli January 21, 2023 / 10:56 am

    Now I need to read back and find out what happened 😦 Fandango, everything about a hospital is designed to make you feel worse. No privacy, staff keep you from sleeping, getting poked and prodded, the unnatural light, the hideous food. Try to pretend it is just a temporary nightmare. Don’t let it get you down. Will start vibing energy to you and keep it vibing, a glowing blanket of warm energy, that will protect and cushion you, until you get the hell out of that hell.

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    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:23 am

      Thank you, Li. Intellectually I know it’s a temporary thing, although at my age, it will be a long temporary, as one doesn’t bounce back from injuries like these as rapidly as one did in youth. Yes, being in the hospital and in hospital-based rehab sucks, but if all goes according to plan, in six days I’ll be heading home, and there really is no place like home.

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      • msjadeli January 22, 2023 / 10:04 am

        You’re very welcome and I’m glad you can see home there in just six days.

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  11. puppy1952 January 21, 2023 / 12:08 pm

    Sorry to hear of your plight. Keep at the therapies and get well soon.

    Liked by 1 person

  12. bushboy January 21, 2023 / 12:59 pm

    Don’t rush your recovery Fandango. Us old farts take time to recover now-a-days. I agree with the sneaking in a bit of home cooking to aid in getting back on your foot.

    Liked by 1 person

    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:27 am

      Thanks, Brian. The good woman has done just that, helping to fill the void left by the bland and almost inedible hospital fare.

      Liked by 1 person

  13. pensitivity101 January 21, 2023 / 1:37 pm

    Take your time Fandango otherwise you might be in an even worse position than you are now.
    Hospital food sucks, but at least you’re getting something. My first stint in hospital lasted a week and all I was allowed was water. I lost seven pounds and when I was finally allowed to order a meal, I was discharged before I had it! They never did find out what was wrong either.

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      • pensitivity101 January 22, 2023 / 9:59 am

        Since then, I’ve only had two overnight stays in hospital, one with a severe nosebleed they couldn’t stop and I looked like a walrus with two tampons stuck up m nose, and when I had my op in 2019. I got breakfast then!!

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  14. JT Twissel January 21, 2023 / 1:58 pm

    The body needs all the energy it can get too heal which leads to little energy for the mind. It’s very frustrating. So sorry they can’t at least give you something tasty to eat. Perhaps a nice glass of wine! Hoping for the best for you!

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    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:33 am

      Thanks. I think “bland” is the best word used to describe the food they serve here, but it’s institutional food, and people generally don’t flock to hospital for gourmet meals. 😉

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  15. annieasksyou January 21, 2023 / 3:10 pm

    Fandango! I missed some important tweets. So very sorry to hear you’re ailing. Sending positive healing thoughts; hope your recovery is quicker than expected—and enduring.

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  16. donmatthewspoetry January 21, 2023 / 3:30 pm

    Nice to see your feet again. Good to hear from you. I’m surprised they intend to discharge you so soon. I was in hospital 6 weeks with a fractured pelvis waiting for it to heal…….

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    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:36 am

      I’m surprised, too, based upon the way I’m feeling now, but I’m happy nonetheless to be going home and to continue my therapy from there.

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  17. jilldennison January 21, 2023 / 7:51 pm

    I’m so very sorry to learn of your accident, my friend! I didn’t know until just now. Take care and trust me … you’ll feel much better both mentally and physically when you get out of that torture chamber they call a hospital! I spent 11 days in one just over a year ago and left in worse shape than when I arrived there, plus I caught a nurse stealing from me! Wishing you a very speedy recovery!

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    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 1:48 am

      Thanks, Jill. I’m so looking forward to going home next Friday.

      Liked by 1 person

  18. jai January 21, 2023 / 7:53 pm

    Just take care of yourself and get better; that’s what’s important. WordPress will still be here when you feel like being here.

    Liked by 1 person

  19. authorfleurl January 21, 2023 / 11:51 pm

    I’m wishing you a speedy recovery, stay positive, even if you feel fed up. You’ll be back on your feet in no time.

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  20. sweeterthannothing January 22, 2023 / 4:34 am

    Thanks for checking in and letting us know you’re (not) okay, you’ll be back in ship shape in no time, hope to see you back up and running soon.

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  21. Jay January 22, 2023 / 5:35 am

    I’m so sorry, man! I hope having a date to go back home helps a little bit. Think that soon you’ll be resting in your own familiar space! Wishing you a speedy recovery again, and if there’s anything I can help with from all the way here, I’ll be on it!

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    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 2:42 pm

      Thanks, Jay. I am looking to go home on Friday.

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    • Fandango January 22, 2023 / 2:41 pm

      I’m sure it well, over time. A long time. I figure half of 2023 is going to be a lost year.

      Liked by 1 person

  22. Irene January 22, 2023 / 6:12 am

    This was pretty good writing, Fandango, so I can see that once you get back home, your energy and motivation will increase in no time. Rest as much as you can for now, your fellow bloggers and readers are rooting for a super speedy recovery!

    Liked by 1 person

  23. The Autistic Composter January 22, 2023 / 1:13 pm

    Sorry to read you are unwell Fandango, but forgive my ignorance and absence but what is it that you have done or are suffering with?

    Liked by 1 person

  24. leigha66 January 31, 2023 / 3:24 pm

    (I am only a touch over a week behind now) I hope you are improving everyday and you energy is gradually returning to you. Recovery is tough!

    Liked by 1 person

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